The Bible
I believe every and all words of Scripture are inspired by God (Verbal-Plenary) (Luke 24:25-27, Matthew 22:41-45). God superintended the writings of men to communicate His truth being in total control of the process without violating the human authors' role and personality (2 Peter 1:20-21, 2 Timothy 3:16). The Bible is completely without error in the original autographs. The Bible affirms nothing false and only all that is true. Scripture holds absolute authority because it is the very Word of the only true God (Matthew 4:4,7,10; John 10:35). It is sufficient and the final standard for all of life and practice of the believer (2 Tim. 3:16-17).
God
God has revealed Himself logically and biblically (Psalm 105:4) as a Spirit, infinite (1 Kings 8:27), eternal (Psalm 90:2) and unchangeable in His being, wisdom, power, holiness, justice, goodness, and truth. His attributes are not component parts of God. Each describes His total being. Some of them can be seen in us insofar as we are made in His image. Others we cannot possess; omnipresence (Acts 17:24-28), omniscience (Psalm 147:4), omnipotence (Genesis 17:1). There is one God who exists eternally as three persons; Father (John 6:27), Son (John 20:28), and Holy Spirit (Acts 5:3-4), yet all are of one substance, fully God (Deut. 6:4, Matt. 28:19).
Jesus Christ
If the Father is the One Who wills things to happen, the Son is the One Who carries them out. The person of Jesus Christ existed before His earthly birth and will exist forever (John 8:58, Isaiah 9:6). The apostles testified to the deity of Christ (Hebrews 1:1-3). He performed divine works of creation, preservation, revelation, forgiveness of personal sin, raising of the dead, and sending the Holy Spirit. He also displays the divine attributes of immutability, omnipresence, and omnipotence. Christ was born of a virgin (Matt. 1:22-23). He came "in the flesh" (incarnation) and is one person yet with two natures; He has undiminished deity (100% God) and perfect humanity (100% man) (Phil. 2:5-7). He had to be God in order to bear the world's sin upon Himself and He had to be man to be a sufficient sacrifice on behalf of the human race (1 Peter 4:1, Heb. 9:22; 10:1-10). He is the only means by which anyone can enter heaven (Acts 4:11-12, John 14:6). He died a penal substitutionary death, taking the wrath of God upon Himself and standing in our place when we were to receive that wrath (2 Cor. 5:21, Mark 10:45, Rom. 5:18). Christ was raised from the dead on the third day after He died (Luke 24, John 20, 1 Cor. 15). His raising from the dead was not unto another dying earthly body. He was the '"first fruits (1 Cor. 15:20,23) of a new kind of human life, a life in which His body was perfect..." His body was physical and real (Matt. 28:9, John 20:20, 27).
The Holy Spirit
If the Son carries out the Father’s will, the Spirit provides the power for His will to be carried out. The Holy Spirit is not an "it" but is revealed as a person in that He has intellect (Rom. 8:27), emotions (Eph. 4:30), and will (Acts 16:6-11). He is included with the other members of the Trinity (Matt. 28:19). He has titles reminiscent of deity (Heb. 9:14). He displays divine attributes (Job 33:4). He performs divine works (Gen. 1:2) and He is called God (Acts 5:3-5). He teaches (John 14:26, 16:13), testifies about Christ (John 15:26), affirms our salvation (Rom. 8:16), leads believers to live a holy life (Rom. 8:14), convicts of sin (John 16:7-8), commands believers (Acts 8:29; 13:2; 16:7), intercedes for us (Rom. 8:26), regenerates (John, 3:6, Titus 3:4-5), sanctifies (2 Thess. 2:13, Rom. 1:4), and bestows spiritual gifts (1 Cor. 12:4, Hebrews 2:4).
Man
Man was made in the image of God (Gen. 1:26-27). The image was partly retained after the fall of man, but it was marred (Gen. 5:1). It can be partially restored by salvation through Jesus Christ (Eph. 3:10). Man willfully sinned against God (Gen. 3), thereby bringing all mankind into a state of sin (Rom. 3:23; 5), separation from God, and subjection to the power of Satan. We are not “all children of God,” but rather all those who are not born again are children of Satan (John 8:44, 1 John 3:10, Eph. 2:1-3). Man is born into a sinful nature (Psalm 51:5, Eph. 2:1-3) with a natural propensity to act in opposition to God and His Word (Rom. 8:7). This sinful nature makes man a slave to sin and dead in sin without the regenerating work of the Holy Spirit (John 8:34, Rom. 6:6; 6:16, Col. 2:13-14).
Salvation
Salvation is a gift of God by His grace alone and is not attained by works or human merit of any kind (Eph. 2:8-10, Titus 3:5). Salvation comes by repentance toward God and personal faith/trust in Christ alone (Acts 20:21, John 3:16, Eph. 2:8). Repentance is also gift of God (Acts 11:18, 2 Tim. 2:25). By repentance I mean a conscious turning from a self-orientation driven by sin to a God-orientation driven by a desire for holy living. This means an initial change of mind and heart that is more than simply mental assent to the facts of the gospel. It's an internal surrender and dying to self (Matt. 16:24). This brings a movement from slavery to sin toward slavery to Christ (Rom. 6:18-19, Eph. 6:6), without which it would not be evident a change of heart ever took place in the Christian's life (1 John 3:9) nor that the believer was now given a new nature and is a new creation (2 Cor. 5:17). I do not mean cleaning up one's life before being saved or becoming more moral to commend oneself to God nor am I saying a believer can reach perfection this side of heaven or doesn't struggle in the Christian life (1 John 1:8-10). Saving repentance and faith occur together in response to the gospel message. We see this clearly in the evangelistic preaching of Jesus and the apostles (Acts 26:16-20, 1 Thess. 1:9-10, Acts 14:15, Acts 2:38, Mark 1:14-15). At the moment of salvation God declares (justifies) a believing sinner (Romans 3:26; 5:9) to be righteous in His sight. This is the imputation of our sins to Christ (Colossians 2:14; 1 Peter 2:24) and the imputation of Christ’s righteousness to us (2 Corinthians 5:21). Those who saved are the elect of God, chosen in Him before the foundation of the world (Ephesians 1, 1 Thessalonians 1:9, Rom. 9:6-24) and are predestined of God for eternal glory (Romans 8:30).
Baptism and Communion
Baptism was instituted and modeled by Christ to symbolize the work of the Spirit identifying the believer with Christ in His death, burial and resurrection. Baptism is commanded by Christ in the Great Commission and was practiced by the NT Church. It’s to be done by immersion after conversion (Matthew 28:19-20, Acts 2:38-44, 10:33, 43, 47, 48, Romans 6:3-7, Colossians 2:12). Water Baptism is an outward representation of an internal invisible transformation. To explore if anything "happens" in the act of baptism is to lift and emphasize baptism beyond the place the Apostle Paul did (1 Cor. 1:7). To say there is any "saving aspect" to the earthly act of baptism is to walk a line that begins to introduce works into salvation by grace alone. To treat baptism as a symbol is not to diminish it, but it is to place it on a level clearly distinct from religions and denominations which hold to any form of baptismal regeneration and to give it an appropriate place in the life of a Christian. The Lord's Supper was instituted as a remembrance and a symbol, instructing the body by focusing worship upon Christ and His atoning work on the cross. Each believer is personally and individually responsible to not partake of the bread and the cup unworthily (Luke 22:7-38, 1 Corinthians 11:20-34). We are commanded to observe the Lord’s Supper continually (Matthew 26:26-30, Mark 14:22-26). We simply must confess we are eating and drinking substances produced by this world and manufactured in our day. They simply are not and never will be literally Christ Himself. Communion should only be partaken of by Christians who can do so with pure motives, all known sin confessed, therefore being in right relationship with the Lord. Unbelievers or those unsure of their salvation should not participate because they would be celebrating the death of a Savior whom they are rejecting. They would be explicitly celebrating the salvation of others and implicitly celebrating their own condemnation.
The Perseverance and Eternal Security of the Believer
When someone is saved by the power of God they cannot nor would they desire to un-save themselves. Salvation can never be lost. Once they are saved, they will persevere to the end (Rom. 8:1, John 6:37, John 10:27-29, Ephesians 1:13-14, Jude 1:24, Revelation 3:5, 1 Peter 1:4-5). The NT speaks of "eternal life" about 43 times and John 6:47 says, "He who believes has everlasting life." This is life that clearly lasts forever and is unconditionally based upon the irrevocable declaration of righteousness by God Himself.
Last Things
I am Premillenial, Pretribulational, and Progressively Dispensational. A day presently unknown to us will come when the children of God are caught up to heaven (Matt. 24:36). This is called the Rapture (1 Thess. 1:10, 1 Thess. 4:16-17, Rev. 3:10). After this a 7 year period of trial called the Tribulation will come. During this Tribulation there will be a span of judgments on the earth and those left in it. This period will be climaxed by the physical literal return of Jesus Christ (2nd Coming) (Rev. 1:7). At His return He will introduce the millennial age, bind Satan, restore Israel to her own land, give her the realization of God’s covenant promises, and bring the whole world to the knowledge of God (Ezekiel 37:21-28, Matthew 24:15-25, 46; Acts 15:16-17; Romans 8:19-23; 11:25-27). After Christ’s literal 1,000 millennial reign, Satan will be released and finally cast into the lake of fire. During this time also all those who rejected Christ will stand before the Great White Throne to receive final judgment and be thrown into a literal Hell, the 2nd death, the lake of fire (Rev. 20:10-15). The reality of Hell is a conscious experience of everlasting torment (Rev. 14:9-11, Matt. 25:41, Mark 9:43). The Church and Israel are distinct and yet both the people of God. Israel and the Church will share in some of the same promises and future blessings in the sense that they are unified by salvation through Christ and will be unified in the end before God in worship (Rev. 7:9). They are distinct in that to enter the church one must be baptized into it by the Holy Spirit. This could only first occur beginning at the day of Pentecost in Acts 2. The church and Israel cannot be one people of God without any distinction because to be considered a part of the church you needed the baptism of the Spirit contained in the order of salvation. No one could be a part of the church prior to the coming of the Holy Spirit. Progressive Dispensationalism is further confirmed by the “now, not yet” idea of the Kingdom of God presented in Scripture (cf. Luke 17:21; 22:18).
Sunday, February 6, 2011
Thursday, February 3, 2011
Thinking Through Psalm 1
Psalm 1 (English Standard Version)
VERSE 1: Blessed is the man
who walks not in the counsel of the wicked,
nor stands in the way of sinners,
nor sits in the seat of scoffers;
VERSE 2: but his delight is in the law of the LORD,
and on his law he meditates day and night.
VERSE 3: He is like a tree
planted by streams of water
that yields its fruit in its season,
and its leaf does not wither.
In all that he does, he prospers.
VERSE 4: The wicked are not so, but are like chaff that the wind drives away.
VERSE 5: Therefore the wicked will not stand in the judgment, nor sinners in the congregation of the righteous;
VERSE 6: for the LORD knows the way of the righteous,
but the way of the wicked will perish.
Footnotes:
Psalm 1:1 The singular Hebrew word for man (ish) is used here to portray a representative example of a godly person;
Psalm 1:2 Or instruction
Verse 1:
The verse opens on the positive note of the “blessed” man. It begins explaining why/how the man is blessed. So the implied question the Psalm intends to answer is, “How is a man blessed?” We don’t know yet what this blessing looks like/what it is, but we know the Psalm is going to give a recipe of sorts for blessing. Someone who is blessed does not walk in the counsel of the wicked. Walk is the first of 3 action verbs in this verse. Walking is an everyday activity of our lifestyle. It’s not all of what we do, but without it we’d get little done. The one who is blessed doesn’t walk in the counsel of the wicked. This isn’t “council” like a board of directors, but rather refers to trusted advice as from a close friend (this is based on the context and message of the psalm not word study). You may picture the closeness involved in a relationship where a person is walking alongside someone else giving or receiving counsel. The blessed man doesn’t do this with these people. Walking could also imply a carrying out/moving forward with the counsel. The blessed man though doesn’t walk in the counsel of the wicked. Even in the English of our Bibles this psalm is speaking to the individual blessed man (singular) as he is compared to the wicked (plural). This already places emphasis on the blessed man and makes the “wicked” a broad category that’s mentioned merely to compare them with the blessed man, who is the primary one in view here. This blessed man also doesn’t stand in the way of sinners. Stand is the second of the 3 action verbs in the passage. Standing is also something we do in daily life, but it (like walking) doesn’t describe the whole of our daily life. This person doesn’t stand in the way of sinners. This brings to mind phrases like, “It’s just not our way to _________.” The blessed man doesn’t stand in the way/path of these people. He doesn’t take/ask for their counsel as he would a close friend nor does he stand in the same way/path of life they do. Here they’re called sinners. So the wicked are also sinners. These may be referring to both the same group broadly. People are wicked because they sin for sure, but here they’re used as synonyms. They’re also both plural and both negative in usage. The blessed man also doesn’t sit in the seat of scoffers. With sit we come to the final action verb in this verse. The author doesn’t mention laying down as elsewhere in Scripture, but it seems with these 3 actions he’s trying to portray the full spectrum of the daily actions of the righteous man. He doesn’t sit in the seat of scoffers. In each of these 3 descriptions of the righteous man are given something that belongs to the wicked (their counsel, their way, their seat). It’s implied that the righteous man isn’t to involve himself in these things because they don’t belong to him. They aren’t a part of his consideration. In other words, the righteous man shouldn’t do these things because they belong only to the wicked and should stay that way. Scoffers is the third synonym for the wicked and is also plural like the other 2. To imagine a person scoffing is to picture them perhaps shouting things from their chair without good reason or without getting up from their chair to act on or sufficiently support what they’re scoffing about. Do wicked people always openly scoff? Can we call them scoffers without question? In some form or fashion they always eventually will. Their heart at its core wars against the things of God and it therefore argues with them and lashes out at them… often verbally.
Verse 2:
But begins a contrast from what has just been said. If the righteous man doesn’t do the things mentioned above, what does he do? His delight is in the law of the Lord. Delight is a joyous word. In The Chronicles of Narnia: Lion, Witch and Wardrobe… there’s a reason the dessert Edmond wants is called “Turkish Delight.” The righteous man actually delights in the law of the Lord. The implication is that the wicked does not delight in it. Instead his delight is in sinning and scoffing at the law of the Lord. The contrast is crystal clear. A word we’d have to study further is law. The footnotes of the ESV say this could be taken as “instruction.” God’s instruction is found in Scripture. If someone delights in something they will surround themselves with that something. They will pour time and energy into it. They will invest in it. It will be hard to stop thinking about it. What does the righteous man do? He meditates on God’s law. This “on” departs from the “in” used so much in verse 1. He meditates on this law. For God’s child to meditate is not the same way a Buddhist or a Hindu might meditate. This meditation is simply deep thought. It’s thinking through the instruction of God. It’s spending time with the Lord and loving Him with all of your mind. He meditates on it day and night. This is a phrase we’d have to study elsewhere in Scripture. It gives us a time frame. Day and night cover both broad phases of the day. He doesn’t stop thinking on the Word of God.
Verse 3:
This righteous man is like a tree. Like is a simile. A tree is something that’s stable, sturdy, and lasts for a long time… generations in some cases. By implication the wicked are then unstable and not study because they do not meditate on the Word of God. This is a tree that’s planted. Being planted is significant because it contributes the stability of the tree. This is no potted plant. For something to be planted it has to be done with purpose. It has to be done intentionally. Trees don’t plant themselves. They need someone to do it for them. It’s planted by streams of water. The by informs us of proximity. A tree can be planted in a number of locations, but this tree is planted by streams of water. Notice this isn’t just one stream of water, but many. It’s plural. Water is the primary source of nourishment and survival for a tree. This tree has all the food it needs to maintain its stability and lasting characteristics. This is a tree that yields its fruit in its season. This tree does what it’s expected to do. It yields its fruit (not another tree’s fruit) in its own season (not a different tree’s season). This is the natural effect of a stable vibrant tree. It isn’t irregular, but it produces as expected. And its leaf does not wither. This however is not something natural for a tree. It’s supernatural. The leaves of trees usually wither and fall off. It’s part of the changing seasons. This tree however has leaves that never wither. It remains vibrant and living. The righteous man is compared to this tree. He soaks up the abundant nourishment of the “law of the Lord” as he meditates on it. This brings him the stability like that of a tree. It sustains him. He brings forth spiritual fruit/growth just as would be expected from someone who constantly soaks up and is thinking on Scripture. But because Scripture is supernatural in nature and has power to bring an unearthly endurance, this man remains stable when everyone else around him is not. When their leaves are falling off and withering… his are not. The final line in this psalm provides the point/explanation of the imagery. In all that he does, he prospers. This is neither a possible nor an ideal all that is never reached and always only hoped for. This is not some, but all. This all is connected to what he does. This is his actions/his lifestyle. The doings of his daily life are affected by his meditation on God’s Word. As the Word soaks into a person’s mind and heart their actions begin to reflect the principles of Scripture because they have hidden It in their heart. Notice that the actions in v.1 that represent the daily life could all be affected in a positive way when the righteous man meditates on the Word instead of being affected in a negative way if he were to walk, stand, and sit with the wicked. Instead he walks, stands, and sits with his mind on the Word of God throughout his day and it affects all he does. How are his doings affected? He prospers in them. Biblical prosperity is not what the TV preachers tell us. It’s not primarily financial (while this verse doesn’t necessarily exclude that). This prosperity happens as a result of the supernatural effects of the Word of God working within a person and shaping them in unseen ways. The effects of this working come out externally and result in prosperity. Aside from that logical connection, there’s something to be said for the fact that God will show favor in a broad sense to those who constantly think on what He has said. The Spirit of God working with the Word of God will transform the life of the child of God to make evident the prosperity of God in their lives in general. This is how and why he is blessed and the original question implied in v.1 is now answered.
Verse 4:
All of what’s been said has been primarily descriptive of the blessed/righteous man. The wicked are not so the Bible says. They are not stable like a tree. They are up and down. The solidity of their opinions is dependent on where the wind is blowing their feelings. They aren’t planted by a constant source of divinely revealed nourishment. They’re left to the devices of this world and to their own way (the way the righteous man doesn’t need because he ahs the Word of God). If they’re not like the tree what are they like? But they are like chaff. But brings the contrast in this verse. It could just as easily have been placed at the beginning of the verse, though with the discussion of the wicked before the but we could tell there was a contrast already. We’d need to study this word chaff, but it’s contrasted with the stability of the tree. How is it unstable? It’s chaff that the wind drives away. It doesn’t simply say the wind blows it away or tosses it away, but it drives it away. There seems to be a force to this word that is anything but casual. The wicked are not stable and in one place where they cannot be moved, but rather they’re pushed along the wind never settling down, never finding rest in a source of lasting food, and always being irregular in some form.
Verse 5:
Therefore brings us to the conclusion and consequence of all that’s been said above. It brings the final word about the wicked. They will not stand in the judgment. We’ve seen “stand” before in this passage. Notice that the wicked/sinners may stand in their own way/path for a season, but they won’t stand in a way that matters in God’s eyes. We need to consult other translations and study the judgment being referred to here. This could refer to the place of the righteous when they will play a part in judging the ungodly in the end of the world. But this is unlikely. The next line could give us a clue and serve to repeat or further define the first line as is common in Hebrew poetry. They won’t stand in the judgment nor sinners in the congregation of the righteous. Here again if there was any doubt that sinners and the wicked were the same group they seem to be used as synonyms again here. We would need to ask some interpretive questions here about the implications this has for unbelievers in church. When we read “congregation” we tend to think “church.” This seems to be saying the wicked aren’t in the same place as the righteous. These two statements are about location. They don’t stand alongside the righteous. This is presumably because of who they are… their wickedness, their sin, their scoffing, their lack of meditation (or even desire to meditate for that fact) on the law of God. Where are they and what is the point of this entire psalm?
Verse 6:
For begins this verse. For can be taken as “because” giving the reason for what preceded, but as is most often used… here it’s likely an explanation of the concluding “therefore.” For says in essence, “In explanation of the last verse…” the Lord knows the way of the righteous. This knowing is usually an intimate knowledge. If we were to do a word study we’d likely find that it’s the same word used when the Old Testament speaks of a man “knowing” his wife in reference to sex. Obviously God doesn’t have sex with us. It would be irreverent to even explore that idea. Yet He knows us intimately. How can He know us? He knows us by our fellowship with Him through the meditation on His Word mentioned earlier. The righteous man prospers in all he does and in this whole process enjoys intimate fellowship with God. Here we’re told God knows the way of the righteous. In this talk of the way of sinners mentioned in v.1 we’re forced to ask if God doesn’t know the way of the wicked. Does He not know what they do? Of course He does. Does He know it intimately? There’s nothing He doesn’t know. The important difference however is that the relationship is different. God knows the way of the righteous intimately in fellowship and love, but God’s knowledge of the way of the wicked is given to us in the final line of Psalm 1. But the way of the wicked will perish. The but again gives us a contrast. It’s about to tell us how God’s knowing differs between both groups. We’d have to study what’s meant by perish. Does it simply mean death or more than that? When we do study it we’d find that it’s eternal death in a literal hell. God knows the way/path/lifestyle of the wicked very intimately, but only with a view toward their eternal judgment in hell. It’s a different knowing. Verse 6 serves as something of a thesis to the entire psalm. It could be rephrased as: The righteous man enjoys prosperity and intimate fellowship with God through meditation on His Word, but the wicked don’t experience this and instead perish in hell where there is no fellowship with God or prosperity.
VERSE 1: Blessed is the man
who walks not in the counsel of the wicked,
nor stands in the way of sinners,
nor sits in the seat of scoffers;
VERSE 2: but his delight is in the law of the LORD,
and on his law he meditates day and night.
VERSE 3: He is like a tree
planted by streams of water
that yields its fruit in its season,
and its leaf does not wither.
In all that he does, he prospers.
VERSE 4: The wicked are not so, but are like chaff that the wind drives away.
VERSE 5: Therefore the wicked will not stand in the judgment, nor sinners in the congregation of the righteous;
VERSE 6: for the LORD knows the way of the righteous,
but the way of the wicked will perish.
Footnotes:
Psalm 1:1 The singular Hebrew word for man (ish) is used here to portray a representative example of a godly person;
Psalm 1:2 Or instruction
Verse 1:
The verse opens on the positive note of the “blessed” man. It begins explaining why/how the man is blessed. So the implied question the Psalm intends to answer is, “How is a man blessed?” We don’t know yet what this blessing looks like/what it is, but we know the Psalm is going to give a recipe of sorts for blessing. Someone who is blessed does not walk in the counsel of the wicked. Walk is the first of 3 action verbs in this verse. Walking is an everyday activity of our lifestyle. It’s not all of what we do, but without it we’d get little done. The one who is blessed doesn’t walk in the counsel of the wicked. This isn’t “council” like a board of directors, but rather refers to trusted advice as from a close friend (this is based on the context and message of the psalm not word study). You may picture the closeness involved in a relationship where a person is walking alongside someone else giving or receiving counsel. The blessed man doesn’t do this with these people. Walking could also imply a carrying out/moving forward with the counsel. The blessed man though doesn’t walk in the counsel of the wicked. Even in the English of our Bibles this psalm is speaking to the individual blessed man (singular) as he is compared to the wicked (plural). This already places emphasis on the blessed man and makes the “wicked” a broad category that’s mentioned merely to compare them with the blessed man, who is the primary one in view here. This blessed man also doesn’t stand in the way of sinners. Stand is the second of the 3 action verbs in the passage. Standing is also something we do in daily life, but it (like walking) doesn’t describe the whole of our daily life. This person doesn’t stand in the way of sinners. This brings to mind phrases like, “It’s just not our way to _________.” The blessed man doesn’t stand in the way/path of these people. He doesn’t take/ask for their counsel as he would a close friend nor does he stand in the same way/path of life they do. Here they’re called sinners. So the wicked are also sinners. These may be referring to both the same group broadly. People are wicked because they sin for sure, but here they’re used as synonyms. They’re also both plural and both negative in usage. The blessed man also doesn’t sit in the seat of scoffers. With sit we come to the final action verb in this verse. The author doesn’t mention laying down as elsewhere in Scripture, but it seems with these 3 actions he’s trying to portray the full spectrum of the daily actions of the righteous man. He doesn’t sit in the seat of scoffers. In each of these 3 descriptions of the righteous man are given something that belongs to the wicked (their counsel, their way, their seat). It’s implied that the righteous man isn’t to involve himself in these things because they don’t belong to him. They aren’t a part of his consideration. In other words, the righteous man shouldn’t do these things because they belong only to the wicked and should stay that way. Scoffers is the third synonym for the wicked and is also plural like the other 2. To imagine a person scoffing is to picture them perhaps shouting things from their chair without good reason or without getting up from their chair to act on or sufficiently support what they’re scoffing about. Do wicked people always openly scoff? Can we call them scoffers without question? In some form or fashion they always eventually will. Their heart at its core wars against the things of God and it therefore argues with them and lashes out at them… often verbally.
Verse 2:
But begins a contrast from what has just been said. If the righteous man doesn’t do the things mentioned above, what does he do? His delight is in the law of the Lord. Delight is a joyous word. In The Chronicles of Narnia: Lion, Witch and Wardrobe… there’s a reason the dessert Edmond wants is called “Turkish Delight.” The righteous man actually delights in the law of the Lord. The implication is that the wicked does not delight in it. Instead his delight is in sinning and scoffing at the law of the Lord. The contrast is crystal clear. A word we’d have to study further is law. The footnotes of the ESV say this could be taken as “instruction.” God’s instruction is found in Scripture. If someone delights in something they will surround themselves with that something. They will pour time and energy into it. They will invest in it. It will be hard to stop thinking about it. What does the righteous man do? He meditates on God’s law. This “on” departs from the “in” used so much in verse 1. He meditates on this law. For God’s child to meditate is not the same way a Buddhist or a Hindu might meditate. This meditation is simply deep thought. It’s thinking through the instruction of God. It’s spending time with the Lord and loving Him with all of your mind. He meditates on it day and night. This is a phrase we’d have to study elsewhere in Scripture. It gives us a time frame. Day and night cover both broad phases of the day. He doesn’t stop thinking on the Word of God.
Verse 3:
This righteous man is like a tree. Like is a simile. A tree is something that’s stable, sturdy, and lasts for a long time… generations in some cases. By implication the wicked are then unstable and not study because they do not meditate on the Word of God. This is a tree that’s planted. Being planted is significant because it contributes the stability of the tree. This is no potted plant. For something to be planted it has to be done with purpose. It has to be done intentionally. Trees don’t plant themselves. They need someone to do it for them. It’s planted by streams of water. The by informs us of proximity. A tree can be planted in a number of locations, but this tree is planted by streams of water. Notice this isn’t just one stream of water, but many. It’s plural. Water is the primary source of nourishment and survival for a tree. This tree has all the food it needs to maintain its stability and lasting characteristics. This is a tree that yields its fruit in its season. This tree does what it’s expected to do. It yields its fruit (not another tree’s fruit) in its own season (not a different tree’s season). This is the natural effect of a stable vibrant tree. It isn’t irregular, but it produces as expected. And its leaf does not wither. This however is not something natural for a tree. It’s supernatural. The leaves of trees usually wither and fall off. It’s part of the changing seasons. This tree however has leaves that never wither. It remains vibrant and living. The righteous man is compared to this tree. He soaks up the abundant nourishment of the “law of the Lord” as he meditates on it. This brings him the stability like that of a tree. It sustains him. He brings forth spiritual fruit/growth just as would be expected from someone who constantly soaks up and is thinking on Scripture. But because Scripture is supernatural in nature and has power to bring an unearthly endurance, this man remains stable when everyone else around him is not. When their leaves are falling off and withering… his are not. The final line in this psalm provides the point/explanation of the imagery. In all that he does, he prospers. This is neither a possible nor an ideal all that is never reached and always only hoped for. This is not some, but all. This all is connected to what he does. This is his actions/his lifestyle. The doings of his daily life are affected by his meditation on God’s Word. As the Word soaks into a person’s mind and heart their actions begin to reflect the principles of Scripture because they have hidden It in their heart. Notice that the actions in v.1 that represent the daily life could all be affected in a positive way when the righteous man meditates on the Word instead of being affected in a negative way if he were to walk, stand, and sit with the wicked. Instead he walks, stands, and sits with his mind on the Word of God throughout his day and it affects all he does. How are his doings affected? He prospers in them. Biblical prosperity is not what the TV preachers tell us. It’s not primarily financial (while this verse doesn’t necessarily exclude that). This prosperity happens as a result of the supernatural effects of the Word of God working within a person and shaping them in unseen ways. The effects of this working come out externally and result in prosperity. Aside from that logical connection, there’s something to be said for the fact that God will show favor in a broad sense to those who constantly think on what He has said. The Spirit of God working with the Word of God will transform the life of the child of God to make evident the prosperity of God in their lives in general. This is how and why he is blessed and the original question implied in v.1 is now answered.
Verse 4:
All of what’s been said has been primarily descriptive of the blessed/righteous man. The wicked are not so the Bible says. They are not stable like a tree. They are up and down. The solidity of their opinions is dependent on where the wind is blowing their feelings. They aren’t planted by a constant source of divinely revealed nourishment. They’re left to the devices of this world and to their own way (the way the righteous man doesn’t need because he ahs the Word of God). If they’re not like the tree what are they like? But they are like chaff. But brings the contrast in this verse. It could just as easily have been placed at the beginning of the verse, though with the discussion of the wicked before the but we could tell there was a contrast already. We’d need to study this word chaff, but it’s contrasted with the stability of the tree. How is it unstable? It’s chaff that the wind drives away. It doesn’t simply say the wind blows it away or tosses it away, but it drives it away. There seems to be a force to this word that is anything but casual. The wicked are not stable and in one place where they cannot be moved, but rather they’re pushed along the wind never settling down, never finding rest in a source of lasting food, and always being irregular in some form.
Verse 5:
Therefore brings us to the conclusion and consequence of all that’s been said above. It brings the final word about the wicked. They will not stand in the judgment. We’ve seen “stand” before in this passage. Notice that the wicked/sinners may stand in their own way/path for a season, but they won’t stand in a way that matters in God’s eyes. We need to consult other translations and study the judgment being referred to here. This could refer to the place of the righteous when they will play a part in judging the ungodly in the end of the world. But this is unlikely. The next line could give us a clue and serve to repeat or further define the first line as is common in Hebrew poetry. They won’t stand in the judgment nor sinners in the congregation of the righteous. Here again if there was any doubt that sinners and the wicked were the same group they seem to be used as synonyms again here. We would need to ask some interpretive questions here about the implications this has for unbelievers in church. When we read “congregation” we tend to think “church.” This seems to be saying the wicked aren’t in the same place as the righteous. These two statements are about location. They don’t stand alongside the righteous. This is presumably because of who they are… their wickedness, their sin, their scoffing, their lack of meditation (or even desire to meditate for that fact) on the law of God. Where are they and what is the point of this entire psalm?
Verse 6:
For begins this verse. For can be taken as “because” giving the reason for what preceded, but as is most often used… here it’s likely an explanation of the concluding “therefore.” For says in essence, “In explanation of the last verse…” the Lord knows the way of the righteous. This knowing is usually an intimate knowledge. If we were to do a word study we’d likely find that it’s the same word used when the Old Testament speaks of a man “knowing” his wife in reference to sex. Obviously God doesn’t have sex with us. It would be irreverent to even explore that idea. Yet He knows us intimately. How can He know us? He knows us by our fellowship with Him through the meditation on His Word mentioned earlier. The righteous man prospers in all he does and in this whole process enjoys intimate fellowship with God. Here we’re told God knows the way of the righteous. In this talk of the way of sinners mentioned in v.1 we’re forced to ask if God doesn’t know the way of the wicked. Does He not know what they do? Of course He does. Does He know it intimately? There’s nothing He doesn’t know. The important difference however is that the relationship is different. God knows the way of the righteous intimately in fellowship and love, but God’s knowledge of the way of the wicked is given to us in the final line of Psalm 1. But the way of the wicked will perish. The but again gives us a contrast. It’s about to tell us how God’s knowing differs between both groups. We’d have to study what’s meant by perish. Does it simply mean death or more than that? When we do study it we’d find that it’s eternal death in a literal hell. God knows the way/path/lifestyle of the wicked very intimately, but only with a view toward their eternal judgment in hell. It’s a different knowing. Verse 6 serves as something of a thesis to the entire psalm. It could be rephrased as: The righteous man enjoys prosperity and intimate fellowship with God through meditation on His Word, but the wicked don’t experience this and instead perish in hell where there is no fellowship with God or prosperity.
Friday, January 28, 2011
Ashamed of the Pastorate
"It is a trustworthy statement: if any man aspires to the office of overseer, it is a fine work he desires to do."
-1 Timothy 3:1 (NASB)
On my way home from work tonight I was listening to one of my favorite Christian radio stations and there's a blurb that comes on (among others) sometimes from a man with a few words or a biblical illustration and a challenging thought or encouragement. This particular ministry has always stood out to me though. Why? Because the man on this radio blurb is never identified as a Pastor. A couple years ago the brief radio program called him a "Youth Communicator." In recent years his name is prefaced by the title, "Youth Culture Specialist." His website says he graduated from Biola University and that he works with youth pastors, has written books, speaks at Christian youth events, etc. He's an itinerant speaker, but it has always frustrated me why the program refuses to call him Pastor? An itinerant Pastor is no less a Pastor than one who is planted in a local church. This raises questions for me. Is he trying to appeal to a secular audience? Is he hoping the lost will use his radio blurbs on their stations? All they have to do is hear something about God or the Bible once and it's over. I suppose I can't say for sure, but I do know the culture has an alluring tendency to help "successful" "Christian" "leaders" muzzle their message or blend their God-given role with something that... after enough time, dollar signs, and attendees often looks less and less like a Pastor, like the gospel, like biblical truth, like... something of God.
As these things catch my ears I continue to look up and (often in tears) ask the Lord when my time will come. When so many boys who call themselves men stand in a pulpit and proclaim their own ideas, when so many charlatans get up in clean suits that cost as much as used cars tell people to sow seeds into their next suit, when so many people who call themselves pastors steal someone else's sermons or play the role of Pharaoh expecting unquestioned submission, when so many guys run out on a church because their feelings are hurt or it gets too hard for them... I ask God when my time will come.
I went for a walk tonight at good ol Capp Smith Park near my house. I've spent a lot of time there in prayer and tears. I've preached there. I jog there. Tonight I just walked and talked to God. No one else was on the track. I asked God why He's done all this. Why did He turn a God-hating Atheist into an upcoming Pastor? Why did He help my school get paid for without ever getting into debt? Why has He tested and tried me and granted the strength to persevere with little difficulty, especially in the last year or two, the last few months? Why all of that just to drop me back home? I told God tonight, "I love You... even though You frustrate me." It's so hard to see those who abuse the pastorate or who are ashamed of it and then to continue slicing the Pan Roasted Turkey and stacking the Roma Tomatoes at the grocery company where I've worked since 2001.
Lord, just as I prayed tonight... help me to trust You as a child trusts his Father when he's asked to do something for reasons he can't yet understand.
-1 Timothy 3:1 (NASB)
On my way home from work tonight I was listening to one of my favorite Christian radio stations and there's a blurb that comes on (among others) sometimes from a man with a few words or a biblical illustration and a challenging thought or encouragement. This particular ministry has always stood out to me though. Why? Because the man on this radio blurb is never identified as a Pastor. A couple years ago the brief radio program called him a "Youth Communicator." In recent years his name is prefaced by the title, "Youth Culture Specialist." His website says he graduated from Biola University and that he works with youth pastors, has written books, speaks at Christian youth events, etc. He's an itinerant speaker, but it has always frustrated me why the program refuses to call him Pastor? An itinerant Pastor is no less a Pastor than one who is planted in a local church. This raises questions for me. Is he trying to appeal to a secular audience? Is he hoping the lost will use his radio blurbs on their stations? All they have to do is hear something about God or the Bible once and it's over. I suppose I can't say for sure, but I do know the culture has an alluring tendency to help "successful" "Christian" "leaders" muzzle their message or blend their God-given role with something that... after enough time, dollar signs, and attendees often looks less and less like a Pastor, like the gospel, like biblical truth, like... something of God.
As these things catch my ears I continue to look up and (often in tears) ask the Lord when my time will come. When so many boys who call themselves men stand in a pulpit and proclaim their own ideas, when so many charlatans get up in clean suits that cost as much as used cars tell people to sow seeds into their next suit, when so many people who call themselves pastors steal someone else's sermons or play the role of Pharaoh expecting unquestioned submission, when so many guys run out on a church because their feelings are hurt or it gets too hard for them... I ask God when my time will come.
I went for a walk tonight at good ol Capp Smith Park near my house. I've spent a lot of time there in prayer and tears. I've preached there. I jog there. Tonight I just walked and talked to God. No one else was on the track. I asked God why He's done all this. Why did He turn a God-hating Atheist into an upcoming Pastor? Why did He help my school get paid for without ever getting into debt? Why has He tested and tried me and granted the strength to persevere with little difficulty, especially in the last year or two, the last few months? Why all of that just to drop me back home? I told God tonight, "I love You... even though You frustrate me." It's so hard to see those who abuse the pastorate or who are ashamed of it and then to continue slicing the Pan Roasted Turkey and stacking the Roma Tomatoes at the grocery company where I've worked since 2001.
Lord, just as I prayed tonight... help me to trust You as a child trusts his Father when he's asked to do something for reasons he can't yet understand.
Monday, January 10, 2011
As the Days Pass By...
"I wanna know why you gave me eyes
When faith is how I see
And tell me
Is it easier to doubt
Or harder to believe
Oh there’s so many questions stirring in me
And I wonder why
Sometimes the truth ain’t easy to find
I wanna know all the answers
But I’m learning that
These things take time
Yeah, these things take time"
-From "These Things Take Time" by Sanctus Real
I'm praying a lot more lately. Wrestling with the Lord more lately. More of the usual I suppose. As I begin my 2nd week at work I'm relieved it'll be about half the hours I worked last week. It wasn't fun to pull two 11 hour days and end with 42 hours. I was tired by the end of my shift that I had literally no energy to think straight, study, or do anything but rest. I wanted those days to be over. I didn't want to be freaked out and pressured when they say the Vice President of the company is at a store nearby and COULD be on his way to ours. The whole store scrambles to make our store manager look good for about an hour as the big wig always finds something to correct. That's not the life for me. Last week a member of management predicted I would be the next Produce manager and another guy asked when I would be. They wouldn't want me as a manager. Upcoming pastors are often asked, "Is there anything else you could do in life other than pastor and still be content? If so, you should do that." This question is asked because pastoring requires a God-given perseverance and strength that can endure the messy lives of broken people and still stand up once or twice a week and proclaim the unadulterated truth. I continue to answer that question with a resounding "no." This is the burden God has given me. He has continued to test and try me in the years I've been saved and especially in the last two. In many respects I already feel like a pastor. I'm comforted by the fact that I don't need to feel a fear of these corporate managers any longer. I do have another opportunity for work. I stay in this job because I know they will be flexible with me if I need to go candidate for a pastoral position somewhere. I've built a reputation here. Also, I look forward tot he possibility of learning something new and doing something different as they've talked of training me in Starbucks inside the store.
Because God has prepared me in the way He has I continue to be baffled and confused as to why He hasn't opened the door for full time ministry yet. I can only trust He has more work for me to do here still. I'm reminded that Jesus didn't enter His formal ministry until His early thirties, though I cringe at the thought of waiting that long. I've sent out a few more resumes recently. A door closed on an Associate Pastor position in PA. They said their needs wouldn't match my gifting. I also re-established contact with Alistair Begg's church in Ohio. They have a 1 year paid pastoral internship program. I'm still waiting to hear from the church in KS. They did recently say they're picking up meeting again and will begin to make some decisions in the next few weeks. A large part of me wants this church. I enjoy the feel of the people and the service. I also think I would fit well with the evangelistic outlook they have to reach the locals. I'm ready to nest somewhere and begin my own life.
On the other hand, I wonder if the Lord may be preparing me to stick around here a bit longer as much as I struggle with the thought of that. I think I'm beginning to see the need for ministry here at home. I need to be so discerning though. There's so much need out there. I must go where I believe the Lord wants me, not just where there's need. A couple friends have recently suggested I look overseas. I already know there's plenty need out there, but is that where God wants me? I'm not sure. I don't know that I'm prepared to raise specific support for such a work if I'm uncertain if God may work sooner than it takes to do that. A friend is gathering information for me about it nonetheless. The reason I say that I see the needs here at home is that even this weekend, God has brought some interesting things my way. A guy I worked with 10 years ago now works with me again. He struck up a conversation with me out of nowhere on facebook chat Saturday night asking what church I went to. I probed further to ask about his background and try to assess his spiritual state as best I could. He has a 6 year old girl and said he's been out of church for about 10 years. It turns out when he was a senior in high school I was a freshman in the same high school. He said he's been pulled and convicted about his spiritual state and wants Christ to be the center of him and his daughter's lives and that he wants to get back into church. I shared my testimony with him including the gospel and invited him to my church. Could this be an opportunity for future discipleship? I'm not sure about his salvation, but is God showing me I need to invest in him?
Beyond this, I begin a men's discipleship group at my church on Jan. 20th where we get together on Thursday nights and talk about how to study the Bible. It will take at least 7 weeks, but most likely more. the pastor tells me that most of the 7 guys who've expressed interest are new to the church. I'll also be preaching once a month at church and helping the pastor with songsheets and powerpoint for morning worship. He's so overloaded. Furthermore there are a number of new people and families to the church. Is God growing the church? Dare I wonder if this means the possibility will open up in the future for a paid position at my home church? I don't want to stay in Texas. Much of this stems from a desire to leave what I had before college and begin my own life afresh. Lord, are you planning something different than I am? I'm just not sure. I just can't say. Last Sunday the pastor was preaching about discerning the specific will of God for our lives. He said it isn't a mystical uncertainty, but that God grants us freedom to make wise choices filtered through the counsel of Scripture and essentially said that's all we need. He then actually said from the pulpit in a list of examples... if you're offered a position as pastor in a church KS you don't have to take it. I laughed as I stood in the back. No one else seemed to notice. Trying to trust that God is sovereign and faithful. I was speaking with some of the older men at church Sunday and I was astonished as I found that they were treating me more as an equal and perhaps more than that as I spoke of theology. It's humbling to see someone who's been in the faith longer than you listening to and respecting your opinion. This Sunday also a guy gave me a book on a biblical view of psychology. My best friend gave me a book on understanding women, haha and a $500 touch screen phone with not only unlimited calling and text, but with internet too. A better tool for ministry! I think also of the time I'm spending with my younger sister. It's been great to be there for her, go jogging together, and tell her Bible stories every now and then. The other day she came into my room and fell asleep for an hour or more on my comfy new sheets as I was reading. It was cute.
As I continue to pray also each week for my sisters in Christ and my future wife, I find myself so emotionally drained from this past semester's events that I want to take a break on pursuing anyone. I know that I can pursue now and that I'm not afraid of rejection. I know that the Lord has taught me how to love, lead, and protect as a man should. I'm prepared for a relationship and still greatly desire the Lord to bless me with a wonderful woman, but I'm trying to focus on what's in front of me right now and I'm sad to say this isn't in front of me as far as I can see. I'm trying to protect myself from on a small level having a wandering heart that I may think clearly enough for the Lord to reveal to me all I need to know when the right woman comes along. I'm resting for now. No one can live on "What ifs" and remain sane.
I continue to spend my free time working out or reading. I'm a few pages from finishing "Is That You, Lord?" By Roberta Rogers about discerning if God is speaking to you or if a thought or idea is from Him or not. This subject has been very relevant to me recently and I hope to write a blog about the book and the subject soon, Lord willing. Three weeks to finish a 200 pg. book isn't bad right? I'm also reading "When the Word Leads your Pastoral Search" by Pastor Chris Brauns on Sunday mornings before church. It's a new book from Moody Publishers recommended to me by a girl on my last sister floor. It's been good so far. I'm soon to start "For Men Only: A straightforward guide to the inner lives of women" by Shaunti and Jeff Feldhahn. I'm VERY curious as to what's found in its pages. It claims to bring clarity to the mind of a woman.
PRAYER:
Oh Lord, I need you now during this time. You know all that's on my heart and mind. You know what I need better than I do and how that may differ from what I want. I know the man you've made me to be. I know you have good things planned for me. Help me to trust you for those things and learn all you want me to learn in this season of my life. Grant me direction in the best I can receive it, Lord. I want to do what you want me to do above my own desires and longings. God grant me wisdom and discernment as I make the next major decisions in my life when the times come to make them. I don't want to be hasty or foolish. Help me to walk carefully, prayerfully, and biblically in the days ahead of me... whatever they may bring.
When faith is how I see
And tell me
Is it easier to doubt
Or harder to believe
Oh there’s so many questions stirring in me
And I wonder why
Sometimes the truth ain’t easy to find
I wanna know all the answers
But I’m learning that
These things take time
Yeah, these things take time"
-From "These Things Take Time" by Sanctus Real
I'm praying a lot more lately. Wrestling with the Lord more lately. More of the usual I suppose. As I begin my 2nd week at work I'm relieved it'll be about half the hours I worked last week. It wasn't fun to pull two 11 hour days and end with 42 hours. I was tired by the end of my shift that I had literally no energy to think straight, study, or do anything but rest. I wanted those days to be over. I didn't want to be freaked out and pressured when they say the Vice President of the company is at a store nearby and COULD be on his way to ours. The whole store scrambles to make our store manager look good for about an hour as the big wig always finds something to correct. That's not the life for me. Last week a member of management predicted I would be the next Produce manager and another guy asked when I would be. They wouldn't want me as a manager. Upcoming pastors are often asked, "Is there anything else you could do in life other than pastor and still be content? If so, you should do that." This question is asked because pastoring requires a God-given perseverance and strength that can endure the messy lives of broken people and still stand up once or twice a week and proclaim the unadulterated truth. I continue to answer that question with a resounding "no." This is the burden God has given me. He has continued to test and try me in the years I've been saved and especially in the last two. In many respects I already feel like a pastor. I'm comforted by the fact that I don't need to feel a fear of these corporate managers any longer. I do have another opportunity for work. I stay in this job because I know they will be flexible with me if I need to go candidate for a pastoral position somewhere. I've built a reputation here. Also, I look forward tot he possibility of learning something new and doing something different as they've talked of training me in Starbucks inside the store.
Because God has prepared me in the way He has I continue to be baffled and confused as to why He hasn't opened the door for full time ministry yet. I can only trust He has more work for me to do here still. I'm reminded that Jesus didn't enter His formal ministry until His early thirties, though I cringe at the thought of waiting that long. I've sent out a few more resumes recently. A door closed on an Associate Pastor position in PA. They said their needs wouldn't match my gifting. I also re-established contact with Alistair Begg's church in Ohio. They have a 1 year paid pastoral internship program. I'm still waiting to hear from the church in KS. They did recently say they're picking up meeting again and will begin to make some decisions in the next few weeks. A large part of me wants this church. I enjoy the feel of the people and the service. I also think I would fit well with the evangelistic outlook they have to reach the locals. I'm ready to nest somewhere and begin my own life.
On the other hand, I wonder if the Lord may be preparing me to stick around here a bit longer as much as I struggle with the thought of that. I think I'm beginning to see the need for ministry here at home. I need to be so discerning though. There's so much need out there. I must go where I believe the Lord wants me, not just where there's need. A couple friends have recently suggested I look overseas. I already know there's plenty need out there, but is that where God wants me? I'm not sure. I don't know that I'm prepared to raise specific support for such a work if I'm uncertain if God may work sooner than it takes to do that. A friend is gathering information for me about it nonetheless. The reason I say that I see the needs here at home is that even this weekend, God has brought some interesting things my way. A guy I worked with 10 years ago now works with me again. He struck up a conversation with me out of nowhere on facebook chat Saturday night asking what church I went to. I probed further to ask about his background and try to assess his spiritual state as best I could. He has a 6 year old girl and said he's been out of church for about 10 years. It turns out when he was a senior in high school I was a freshman in the same high school. He said he's been pulled and convicted about his spiritual state and wants Christ to be the center of him and his daughter's lives and that he wants to get back into church. I shared my testimony with him including the gospel and invited him to my church. Could this be an opportunity for future discipleship? I'm not sure about his salvation, but is God showing me I need to invest in him?
Beyond this, I begin a men's discipleship group at my church on Jan. 20th where we get together on Thursday nights and talk about how to study the Bible. It will take at least 7 weeks, but most likely more. the pastor tells me that most of the 7 guys who've expressed interest are new to the church. I'll also be preaching once a month at church and helping the pastor with songsheets and powerpoint for morning worship. He's so overloaded. Furthermore there are a number of new people and families to the church. Is God growing the church? Dare I wonder if this means the possibility will open up in the future for a paid position at my home church? I don't want to stay in Texas. Much of this stems from a desire to leave what I had before college and begin my own life afresh. Lord, are you planning something different than I am? I'm just not sure. I just can't say. Last Sunday the pastor was preaching about discerning the specific will of God for our lives. He said it isn't a mystical uncertainty, but that God grants us freedom to make wise choices filtered through the counsel of Scripture and essentially said that's all we need. He then actually said from the pulpit in a list of examples... if you're offered a position as pastor in a church KS you don't have to take it. I laughed as I stood in the back. No one else seemed to notice. Trying to trust that God is sovereign and faithful. I was speaking with some of the older men at church Sunday and I was astonished as I found that they were treating me more as an equal and perhaps more than that as I spoke of theology. It's humbling to see someone who's been in the faith longer than you listening to and respecting your opinion. This Sunday also a guy gave me a book on a biblical view of psychology. My best friend gave me a book on understanding women, haha and a $500 touch screen phone with not only unlimited calling and text, but with internet too. A better tool for ministry! I think also of the time I'm spending with my younger sister. It's been great to be there for her, go jogging together, and tell her Bible stories every now and then. The other day she came into my room and fell asleep for an hour or more on my comfy new sheets as I was reading. It was cute.
As I continue to pray also each week for my sisters in Christ and my future wife, I find myself so emotionally drained from this past semester's events that I want to take a break on pursuing anyone. I know that I can pursue now and that I'm not afraid of rejection. I know that the Lord has taught me how to love, lead, and protect as a man should. I'm prepared for a relationship and still greatly desire the Lord to bless me with a wonderful woman, but I'm trying to focus on what's in front of me right now and I'm sad to say this isn't in front of me as far as I can see. I'm trying to protect myself from on a small level having a wandering heart that I may think clearly enough for the Lord to reveal to me all I need to know when the right woman comes along. I'm resting for now. No one can live on "What ifs" and remain sane.
I continue to spend my free time working out or reading. I'm a few pages from finishing "Is That You, Lord?" By Roberta Rogers about discerning if God is speaking to you or if a thought or idea is from Him or not. This subject has been very relevant to me recently and I hope to write a blog about the book and the subject soon, Lord willing. Three weeks to finish a 200 pg. book isn't bad right? I'm also reading "When the Word Leads your Pastoral Search" by Pastor Chris Brauns on Sunday mornings before church. It's a new book from Moody Publishers recommended to me by a girl on my last sister floor. It's been good so far. I'm soon to start "For Men Only: A straightforward guide to the inner lives of women" by Shaunti and Jeff Feldhahn. I'm VERY curious as to what's found in its pages. It claims to bring clarity to the mind of a woman.
PRAYER:
Oh Lord, I need you now during this time. You know all that's on my heart and mind. You know what I need better than I do and how that may differ from what I want. I know the man you've made me to be. I know you have good things planned for me. Help me to trust you for those things and learn all you want me to learn in this season of my life. Grant me direction in the best I can receive it, Lord. I want to do what you want me to do above my own desires and longings. God grant me wisdom and discernment as I make the next major decisions in my life when the times come to make them. I don't want to be hasty or foolish. Help me to walk carefully, prayerfully, and biblically in the days ahead of me... whatever they may bring.
Wednesday, December 22, 2010
The Blessings and Curses of Graduating: Reverse Order
"Use Me Here, Where I am, I'm not gonna pray anymore that You'll change Your plans.
Despite my fear, I place my life in Your hands. The future can wait, tomorrow might be too late,
So Jesus use me here."
-Chorus from the song, "Use Me Here" By Everydodyduck
"By faith Abraham, when he was called, obeyed by going out to a place which he was to receive for an inheritance; and he went out, not knowing where he was going."
-Hebrews 11:8
Anticipating the moment the airplane landing gear touched ground at DFW Airport in TX, I cringed as the doldrums of reality entered their next stage. "Lord, why did you bring me back here?" When I sat in O'Hare Airport in Chicago I kept asking God not to let me get on that plane. A girl on my sister floor happened to walk up to sit at that same gate for the next flight out to WA where she was from. We chatted a bit. I found it funny that God didn't send me directly home, but instead got me a connecting flight into Kansas City, MO before heading home to TX in good time. The airlines were overbooked and it seemed impossible for a standby flier like me to get home during the Christmas season. It was difficult to pray for a flight home that day with such mixed emotions.
I'm not sure what else there is to say about where my heart is. Praying the Lord would open and close doors, that He would prepare me in any way necessary for what's next if something is lacking in me, that He would grant the patience and contentment I need. I've agreed not to work until after Christmas. Needed a break.
I put my Christmas money to good use. Got a few Christmas gifts for friends. Got a used computer desk to replace the old one that was more convenient, comfortable, and my style. Got a cheap slim swivel desk chair. Got a webcam to keep up with my friends from school via skype. Got a curtain for my window (dark blue). Got new sheets and pillowcases (dark blue... and they feel like pajamas!). Got the best wireless adapter Best Buy could offer for the internet (tired of bad connection problems! no more!). While re-decorating my room and settling in, I've been spending time with my sister. There's a park in walking distance from my house with a public basketball goal and pavement. We played some basketball, went to a dollar movie, and did some shopping since I've been back. My friend Lindsey invited me to a church dinner with her parents. It was so funny that her pastor thought we were a couple. I laughed out loud when I realized what he was implying. She corrected him before I could. She even took her family and my sister and I to see the new Narnia movie. I enjoyed it.
I'm trying to be as optimistic as I can and by God's grace I'm doin alright. I get to attend the Church Christmas Eve service, which in years past I've always worked. I anticipate a meeting with my pastor soon to talk about how I can best help serve at church until the Lord does something else in my life. I think the primary need is teaching and teachers from what I've seen. While I found a basketball goal I also looked back into the city Recreation Center. It's $40 a year for residents. If nothing opens up int he next month or two I'm thinking of buying a membership. I realized I actually gained 20 lbs. this past semester! At the funeral I was also reminded about the toll age takes on the human body. Trying to watch my health and eating habits better.
Praying and trying to trust the Lord will do great things. Not easy.
Despite my fear, I place my life in Your hands. The future can wait, tomorrow might be too late,
So Jesus use me here."
-Chorus from the song, "Use Me Here" By Everydodyduck
"By faith Abraham, when he was called, obeyed by going out to a place which he was to receive for an inheritance; and he went out, not knowing where he was going."
-Hebrews 11:8
Anticipating the moment the airplane landing gear touched ground at DFW Airport in TX, I cringed as the doldrums of reality entered their next stage. "Lord, why did you bring me back here?" When I sat in O'Hare Airport in Chicago I kept asking God not to let me get on that plane. A girl on my sister floor happened to walk up to sit at that same gate for the next flight out to WA where she was from. We chatted a bit. I found it funny that God didn't send me directly home, but instead got me a connecting flight into Kansas City, MO before heading home to TX in good time. The airlines were overbooked and it seemed impossible for a standby flier like me to get home during the Christmas season. It was difficult to pray for a flight home that day with such mixed emotions.
I'm not sure what else there is to say about where my heart is. Praying the Lord would open and close doors, that He would prepare me in any way necessary for what's next if something is lacking in me, that He would grant the patience and contentment I need. I've agreed not to work until after Christmas. Needed a break.
I put my Christmas money to good use. Got a few Christmas gifts for friends. Got a used computer desk to replace the old one that was more convenient, comfortable, and my style. Got a cheap slim swivel desk chair. Got a webcam to keep up with my friends from school via skype. Got a curtain for my window (dark blue). Got new sheets and pillowcases (dark blue... and they feel like pajamas!). Got the best wireless adapter Best Buy could offer for the internet (tired of bad connection problems! no more!). While re-decorating my room and settling in, I've been spending time with my sister. There's a park in walking distance from my house with a public basketball goal and pavement. We played some basketball, went to a dollar movie, and did some shopping since I've been back. My friend Lindsey invited me to a church dinner with her parents. It was so funny that her pastor thought we were a couple. I laughed out loud when I realized what he was implying. She corrected him before I could. She even took her family and my sister and I to see the new Narnia movie. I enjoyed it.
I'm trying to be as optimistic as I can and by God's grace I'm doin alright. I get to attend the Church Christmas Eve service, which in years past I've always worked. I anticipate a meeting with my pastor soon to talk about how I can best help serve at church until the Lord does something else in my life. I think the primary need is teaching and teachers from what I've seen. While I found a basketball goal I also looked back into the city Recreation Center. It's $40 a year for residents. If nothing opens up int he next month or two I'm thinking of buying a membership. I realized I actually gained 20 lbs. this past semester! At the funeral I was also reminded about the toll age takes on the human body. Trying to watch my health and eating habits better.
Praying and trying to trust the Lord will do great things. Not easy.
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